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i love my doggie!
my Joshua! all mine!

he bought me a pair of Oakleys. with cute flowers at the side.
it was a surprise. i know he had that idea but i didn't think he would really buy it.
well, it doesn't fit my face. miu. looks 'funny'. my nose bridge is too low to hold it in place!
then again, it's the thought that counts right? hugs.

i really admire and appreciate him.
he is one of those rare people who can tolerate my quick temper.
i alwiz scold him for being childish and lame. i snap at him often.
i complain about everything... from thw hot weather to having nowhere to go.
and he takes it in his stride. surely he will growl but after that, he will kiss kiss me.
i am so sorry darling!

no matter how tired he is, he will still send me home.
he alwiz gives in to my demands. i hardly give in to his requests.
i want to be in control and appear strong though i may be crying inside.
i make myself turn a blind eye to the sweet loving things Joshua stands for.
while other people beside me see his love ever so clearly, i reject them coz of pride.
i take his patience, tolerance and givingness for granted.

though Josh is indeed childish.
he cracks the lamest jokes. he is witty.
he talks alot of shit.
he is highly indecisive about daily actitivites.
he has a bad time management.
he is not mascular nor masculine.
he loves to irritate me by doing things i dislike.
he has a high sex drive.
and i often cannot stand him.
i don't know why am i still stuck with him either.
yeah, i do love him at times, sometimes i dislike him.
sometimes i just want to shut him up.
most of time i just want to hug him and snuggle in bed.
i love being around him and being with him.
just the two of us in our own world. provided that parents are not at home.
coz i really mean ALONE.

though there are many other better guys around.
i am alwiz gushing about Jared. about how fashionable and understanding he is.
i am alwiz gushing how handsome and fit how the IVP swimmers are.
i am alwiz gushing how intellectual and caring Don is.
but deep down i know that Joshua is the suitable one for me.
he is the person whom i can fall asleep peacefully beside, knowing that he will love me.
he is the one i can play with, have fun with, be childish with and snuggle with.
end of the day, it's overlooking his fashion disasters and immatured behaviors,
appreciating his faithfulness, honesty and love sweet love.

i love Joshua.
i have faith that we will make it through. cheers!

posted by Veen @ 23:56